Yes. There are reasons that the issue with Keith is effecting me more than it should. Issues like abuse in the past causing me to have a very low level of offensive bullshit that I’m willing, or able, to tolerate because I’ve had so many problems with manipulators treating me like I don’t even deserve to lick the sole of their boots, refusing to bend while demanding that I break my back to do their bidding or making me feel bad for standing my ground while chiseling away at my right to decide what to do with my life. I’m sick of it and more sensitive to it because it’s stabbing half-healed wounds and rubbing salt into them. And that’s not an excuse for why my feelings are invalid, but people will leap on it if they want to justify Keith’s behavior. I’m still human, I still deserve to be treated with respect- and part of treating people with respect is respecting their triggers and that their past may not be all rainbows and gumdrops.
And it’s not like this could have happened if he weren’t being a jackass- I don’t get triggered by people treating me like a human being. I get triggered when people treat me like shit, attempt to manipulate me, and/or demand that I’m grateful to them for it. The only thing this effects is how strongly I react to it and how well I can deal with it. Once again, this wouldn’t be an issue if he were being a decent person. That I can deal with just fine.
